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Hello.

Mierda. That's what I feel like right now. I would Babelfish Mierda, so I can list it in a gazzillion different languages here, but I don't think they have the word shit in their translation database. It's really a shame don't you think?

So anyways, as it was bound to happen, but I was pretty much in denial that it would...

I finally met her.

Who you may wonder? Because you're all nosey like.

The fiancee. Not just any fiancee. But the ex-husband's fiancee.

Ugh.

Ugh.

Ugh.

Really. It shouldn't matter right? After all...you may say...you filed the divorce...You. You. You.

Each morning it's the same
I stand across the counter
the promise of wakefulness fill my senses
deliver me from my fogginess of mind
oh great cup of Joe.
As Henri takes my $2
and across the counter she pushes back a nickel
it's then it hits me
I leave the nickel on the counter,
my discarded emotion affection.
"I don't need you", I say

Yes.

It's spring.

So lovely people...I'm a gonna do it!!!

I was planning on doing it like 8 years ago, but after paying for the X-Mr.Groovebunny to have his done, and him then using his new ones to make with the googley eyes with very young work interns, it kinda put me off the idea of getting mine done.

But ya know. 8 years have past. I am sooooo over it already!

So L-Day will happen on the 30th. Until then I will treasure these few moments left of moi waking in the middle of the night and walking into walls or falling down the stairs because I can't see a freaking thing as I am so blind as a bat, but without the sonar-echo locating abilities. I have to admit the thought of having a laser, laser into my cornea to create the famous flap that flips so the eye surgeon can do his magic, had me a bit concerned. Okay I lie. It had me scared, because come on! It's my eyeball we're talking about here!!!  But when I weighed in the fact that this won't be the first surgery I've had, and that I've had my uterus cut open (and I saw the whole thing in the shiny part of the overhead light) to remove the little angel who Macarena'd me in the ribs and gave me 9 months of heartburn, a little laser cornea flapping doesn't seem like such a big deal afterall.

One day closer to Friday. Yippeeee! I'm feeling much better. Thank you for all the well wishes lovely people. :) You are truly the best! And huge thanks to The Last Girl on Earth for saying very nice things about me on her site today which made me all teary to begin with and then reading the responses as well! Holy smokes it was Niagra Falls here I was so touched! No lie. Deni is amazing and her readers are amazing too!!!

So I was in the shower just a bit ago working out what I wanted to say about this entry. I had it all worked out, but as I started to type this it all was lost to me. Gone. Vanished. Kaput even.

So I'll start anew and hope I say everything I want to say.

In regards to this, it became terribly obvious to me while I was writing it that I have some things to work out for myself. And truly, without spewing a lot of it on my blog, which really wouldn't do anyone any good, I'm going to take, hopefully, a short hiatus from writing and being on-line in general. I have to be honest though. Really. I'm hoping this will be just a hiatus. But in truth the way I feel right now, I'm not sure I will be back.

Happy Friday! Plus for me Happy Pay-Day Friday!

Sorry for the lack of juicy updates lately ya’ll! I’ve been busy trying to get caught up on diaries and blogs that I had fallen behind in reading. Plus, nothing really juicy is going on in my life right now! And pretty much the juicy-lessness is leading me to write entries that I fall asleep reading back so they get deleted. Not that this one is gonna be any better. Lol.